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Thursday, 06 December 2007

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    Boys Like Girls
    thunder
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    go on for days

    such a soft kiss on rough lips

    such a tender touch to a broken heart

    i could go on for days with you

    i could love you until the world dies out

    such an amazing love for a tiny soul

    such a beautiful smile behind sad eyes

    every kiss pulling me in closer

    i could go on for days with you

     

Sunday, 02 December 2007

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    Undiscovered
    by heart
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    What you know about me...

    A 200 Question Fun Survey 4 Myspace (All The Bzoink Surveys Put Together)
    Full Name::Brandie Elezabeth
    Birthday::7.24.86
    Birthplace::ATL
    Eye Color::Brown.
    Hair Color::Currently dark and light brown, blonde, few red highlights.
    Height::5'4''
    Weight::2 much.
    Right handed or Left handed?:Right.
    Your Heritage::Irish && German.
    My Worst Habit::Not thinking before I speak.
    Zodiac Sign::Leo.
    Shoe Size::9.
    Pants Size::Fat ass size.
    Innie or Outie?:Innie.
    Parents Still Together?:Yeah.
    The Shoes You Wore Today::None.
    Your Weakness::=/
    Your Fears::Death.
    Your Perfect Pizza::Lots o cheese!
    Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year::Finish this block of class with A's.
    Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger:LOL.
    Thoughts First Waking Up::Noah...
    Your Best Physical Feature::Eyes.
    Your Bedtime::By midnight.
    Your Most Missed Memory::idk.
    MY FAVORITES
    Favorite color?:Hot pink.
    Food?:Hot wings.
    Sport?:None.
    Animal?:Ducky.
    Ice Cream?:Phish food.
    Candy?:Cotton candy.
    Store?:Depends.
    Salad Dressing?:Ranch.
    Actor?:Johnny Depp.
    Song?:Fear of dying- JOJ
    Letter?:Q.
    Number?:13.
    Gum?:Whatever.
    Holiday?:Halloween.
    Season?:Fall.
    Toothpaste Flavor?:Don't care.
    Radio Station?:Project 961.
    Perfume?:Midnight fantsay.
    Scent besides perfume?:The ocean. Noah after a bath.
    Body part on the opposite sex?:Eyes.
    FRIENDS AND LIFE
    What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?:I wanna own my own spa.
    How Do You Want To Die?:In my sleep.
    Turn ons::Cuddling. Little kisses. Eyes.
    Turn offs::Self centeredness. Bad pick up lines.
    Which One Of Your Friends Acts The Most Like You?:Jessica.
    Who's The Loudest?:idk.
    Who Makes You Laugh The Most?:Noah!
    Who Have You Known The Longest?:Jessica.
    Who's The Shyist?:Noah.
    When Have You Cried The Most?:When Levi died.
    What Is The Best Feeling In The World?:When Noah reachs out for me, or calls me mommy.
    Worst Feeling?:When you see someone cry-- and you know it's b/c of you.
    Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up?:The beach.
    If You Could Change One Thing About You What Would It Be?:I wanna be skinny.
    How Long Do You Think You'll Live?:67.
    FINISH EACH SENTENCE
    Let's walk on the:beach.
    Let's look at the:stars.
    What a nice:night.
    Where did all the:cookies go?
    Why can't we:find the cookies?!
    Silly, little:butt face!
    Isn't it weird that:the cookies are still gone!
    Never under any circumstance:will I jump out of a plane.
    I wish:I were brave.
    Everyone has a:soul mate.
    I am:awsome.
    HAVE YOU EVER
    Been In Love?:Yes.
    Been To Juvie?:Nope.
    Mooned Someone?:Not on purpose.
    Been Rejected?:Yes.
    Ran Away From Home?:Yes.
    Pictured Your Crush Naked?:Yes.
    Skipped School?:Yes.
    Thought About Suicide?:Yes.
    Slept Outside?:Yes.
    Laughed So Hard You Cried?:Yes.
    Cried In School?:Yes.
    Thrown Up In School?:Yes.
    Wanted To Be a Model?:Yes.
    Cheated On Someone?:Yes.
    Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today?:Yup.
    Seen A Dead Body?:Yes.
    Been Bitched Out?:Oh yeah.
    Drank Alcohol?:Yes.
    Smoked?:Yes.
    Been On Drugs?:Yes.
    Eaten Sushi?:NO!
    Been On Stage?:Yes.
    Gone Skinny Dipping?:No.
    Shoplifted?:Yes.
    Been Drunk?:Yes.
    Been Called A Tease?:No.
    Been Beaten Up?:No.
    DO YOU
    Swear?:Yes.
    Sing Well?:No.
    Shower Daily?:Yes.
    Want To Go To College?:In college.
    Want To Get Married?:Yes.
    Believe In Yourself?:Sometimes.
    Get Motion Sickness?:Yea.
    Think You Are Attractive?:Sometimes.
    Get Along With Your Parents?:Eh.
    Like Thunderstorms?:Yes.
    Play An Instrument?:No.
    Own An IPOD?:Yes.
    Pray?:Yes.
    Go To Church?:Yes.
    Sleep With Stuffed Animals?:No.
    Keep A Journal/Diary?:Only online.
    Dance In The Rain?:Yes.
    Sing In The Shower?:Yes.
    THIS OR THAT
    Pepsi or Coke?:I don't drink soda.
    McDonald's or Burger King?:Micky D's.
    Single or Group Dates?:Single.
    Chocolate or Vanilla?:Chocolate.
    Strawberries or Blueberries?:Strawberries.
    Meat or Veggies?:Meat.
    TV or Movie?:Movies.
    Guitar or Drums?:Gutiar.
    Adidas or Nike?:Nike.
    Chinese or Mexican?:Either.
    Cheerios or Corn Flakes?:Cheerios.
    Cake or Pie?:Cake.
    MTV or VH1?:VH1.
    Blind or Deaf?:Blind.
    Boxers or Briefs?:Boxers.
    CAN YOU
    Do The Splits?:No.
    Write With Both Hands?:Kinda.
    Whistle?:Yes.
    Blow A Bubble?:Yes.
    Roll Your Tongue In A Circle?:Yes.
    Cross Your Eyes?:Not that I'd want to-- but yes.
    Walk With Your Toes Curled?:Yeah..
    Touch Your Tongue to Your Nose?:No. I just tried lol.
    Dance?:Ugh okay.
    Eat Whatever You Want And Not Worry?:Hell no.
    WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
    You Touched::Noah.
    You Talked To On The Phone::JayDee.
    You Instant Messaged::Lisa.
    You Hugged::Noah.
    You Yelled At::JayDee.
    You Played A Sport With::Is pat-a-cake a sport?
    WHAT'S THE LAST
    Time You Laughed?:Earlier when I was playing with Noah.
    Time You Cried?:This morning listening to a song.
    Movie You Watched?:Some gay 'scary' movie.
    Flavor Of Gum You Chewed?:idk.
    Joke You Told?:The duck joke!
    Song You've Sung?:vivica.
    RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT
    Where Are You?:My room.
    What Can You See Out Your Window?:Nothing, my blinds are closed.
    Are You Listening To Music?:Yes.
    What Are You Wearing?:PJ pants and a white tee.
    What's On Your Mousepad?:I don't have one.
    BELIEFS
    Do you believe there is life on other planets?:No.
    Do you believe in miracles?:Yes.
    Magic?:No.
    Love at first sight?:No.
    God?:Yes.
    Satan?:Yes.
    Ghosts?:Yes.
    Santa?:Yes!
    Evolution?:Eh.
    IN A BOY...
    Fav Eye Color::Blue.
    Fav Hair Color::Brown.
    Short or Long Hair::Short.
    Height::Taller than me.
    Weight::Whatever.
    Best Clothing Style::Cute.
    RANDOM
    What Country Would You Most Like To Visit?:Ireland.
    Number Of CD's I Own::Less than 100.
    Your Good Luck Charm::none.
    How many pillows do you sleep with?:2.
    Do you drink milk?:Yes.
    Person You Hate Most::I don't HATE anyone.
    Most Outdated Phrase::Talk to the hand... lol.
    Do you think God has a gender?:Yes... maybe?
    Where do you think we go when we die?:I don't like these questions.
    How many rings until you answer the phone?:Depends on who is calling =]
    What is something scientists need to invent?:An antidepressant that works haha.
    Are you a health freak?:Not even close.
    Are you a virgin?:No.
    If you could travel into space, where would you go?:o.O
    What is the worst weather?:Realllly cold-- but no snow.
    Did you play with Barbies as a child?:Yes. I cut their hair off and melted their feet and hands with lighters. o.O
    How many grades have you failed?:None.
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    Antichrist Superstar
    By Marilyn Manson
    coma white
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    just fake it.

    I'm not afraid of standing still
    I'm just afraid of being bored
    I'm not afraid of speaking my mind
    I'm just afraid of being ignored

    I'm not afraid of feeling
    and I'm not afraid of trying
    I'm just afraid of losing
    And I am afraid of dying

    Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
    Without you yes I do
    Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
    Without you yes I...

    I'm not afraid of being sick
    I'm more afraid of being well
    I'm not afraid
    Put the gun in my hand
    I'm just afraid it will hurt like (hurt like) hell

    I'm not afraid of screaming
    and I'm not afraid of crying
    I'm just afraid of forgetting
    And I am afraid of dying

    Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
    Without you yes I do
    Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
    Without you yes I...

    Fear of
    Fear of
    Fear of
    Fear of

    I'm not afraid of looking ugly
    I couldn't care what they say
    I'm not afraid of happy endings
    I'm just afraid my life won't work that way

    I'm not afraid of forgiveness
    I absolve you everything
    I'm not afraid of lying...
    But I am afraid of dying

    Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
    Without you yes I do
    Without you all I do is sit and think about you
    Without you yes I...

     

    -Jack Off Jill- .Fear of dying.

     

    So this song has been my theme song for life from the day I very first heard it. It is like it was wrote for me. It's how I fell everyday.

    The verse:

    I'm not afraid
    Put the gun in my hand
    I'm just afraid it will hurt like (hurt like) hell

    Use to make me cry everytime I heard it. I thijk I wrote those three lines in every suiced note since the day I heard it. I know that sounds stupid and dramatic-- but those lines realy caught me.

     

    I'm not afraid of looking ugly
    I couldn't care what they say
    I'm not afraid of happy endings
    I'm just afraid my life won't work that way

     

    That's me everyday. I don't really care what anyone thinks anymore. I'm sick of doing things to please other people. People are always gonna talk-- let them. What harm can they do? But a happy ending.

    That's what I want.

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    The Best Damn Thing (CD/DVD Deluxe Limited Edition)
    By Avril Lavigne
    innocence
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    My First Post

    I have always lived a double life.

    I have always pretended to be someone I'm not.

    My real self is burried under lies, scars, and fears...

    I've been through terrible things-- but no worse than others I'm sure.

    I have a real trust issue-- with everyone.

    As soon as I think I get my life together and I have things figuered out--- something changes and I get thrown off track again.

    So now that life is a compleate mess, I have to figuer things out.

    So that is what I'm here to do.

     

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